Making My Mind Up

So- the first entry of 2008 finds me back in Japan after 2 weeks back home, drunk at 3am ish, and about to sleep in an internet cafe again.

Great opener, huh?
I am all kinds of confused right now, and it's not just the copious amount of booze in my system talking. I have to decide whether or not I stay in Japan for another year and I have to do it soon.

If you had asked me a few weeks ago whether I was going to recontract and stay another year, I would have said no. I was so sure. But now...
I'm wavering. I'm seriously considering staying. And I'm not even sure why. It's like my brain has been hijacked and is doing its own independent thinking. On crack or something.

I'm racking my brain trying to find out what the tug is, why I don't seem in such a rush to quit Japan anymore and I still don't know. I'm making lists over and over of pros and cons- and yet I seem unable to say firmly yes or no. It's possibly fear of the unknown, of what comes next if I leave Japan. Or...I don't know. But our final contracts are due to be sent out in February. Yes or no. Heads or tails. In or out.

Admittedly not the most cogent of entries- (I'm finishing this entry in the morning still somewhat drunk), but hey, no typos! :)
I will do a proper entry later today.

To close, here's a band my third year girls dig, EXILE.



And here's a random German dance band I discovered last night via a very cool Irish bartender called Bryan in Okayama- Modeselektor.
Check out other tracks such as The Dark Side Of The Sun and Godspeed and turn up the bass!



By the way, Happy New Year to you all...